Overwhelmed

I had a support team less than a week ago, and their absence has definitely been felt. I knew they'd be gone one day and that I'd be dealing with Raquel on my own. Dealing with her has been the easy part, and that was what I was worried about the most - not having their input with behaviors. They'd be proud of me. Raquel has become more and more predictable, which makes her easier to read, and therefore, behaviors aren't really happening because I can redirect her before a meltdown occurs. As of last week, that is. With Raquel, it comes down to her stubborn personality and it's all subject to change at any given time.

The overwhelming comes in to play because I don't know what to do with her regarding school. I know she needs to be in school and therapy must go on, it's just how I want to go about doing it and finding the right fit for Raquel. Not only does the afternoon class not work for me time wise - I would need to find someone to watch her while I go in the office in the mornings - I honestly can say that I truly feel in my heart that this is not the most appropriate class for her and that the district should be able to offer me a couple choices that aren't so extreme.

Then, if I'm going to have to pay for a daycare of some sort to watch her in the morning, why not just make this her "school" and have her new therapists go there for therapy (if needed), or continue in-home sessions? She'd more than likely get much better socialization at a typical daycare than the school district class.

I keep going back and forth in my head, over and over again. Once I think I've figured it out, the doubting starts and I'm back to square one.

The main issue right now is that we don't want a lapse in therapy for Raquel. Tuesday I will call the district to see if I can take her to school for the therapy sessions only. Actually, I'll call my Educational Consultant first to see if that is an option, and then I'll call the district. I do know that they are required to provide for her in some capacity now that she has transitioned.

The most frustrating part is that I have invested so much time and energy this year to Raquel's therapy. Obviously, I'd do it again in a heartbeat. But to come from a year based on such structure and routine to what I'm faced with now, is really disappointing. I, unrealistically, expected everything to just fall into place. It's unfair that the district only gives you one week to transition. A week is not enough time, puts way too much pressure on you, and you constantly feel rushed. And I don't think that is how anyone wants to start a new situation, especially when kids are involved.